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I absolutely know what you are going through. I also have not yet figured out whether or not it is better for people to know that you are attempting to have a baby. On one hand, like you said, it is really hard when people make little off-handed remarks to us about not having kids, but it is probably worse when somebody who knows we are trying says something stupid. Like the other day my sister in law handed me a Cosmo article on "increasing your fertility", and then gave me a lecture on how she thinks I just need to relax and de-stress and I will get pregnant! I just wanted to say, "oh, yeah, relax - why didn't I think of that, I will have to mention that technique to my reproductive endocrinologist!" I almost have to laugh now when I think of how ridiculous her comment was, but I was very hurt and angry at the time.
The fact of the matter is that people who have never been through infertility have absolutely no concept of what it is like or what you are going through. Which is undoubtedly why we all flock to these forums.
As for the disappointment month after month and the frustration in not knowing what is going wrong, I am with you all the way. I feel like every negative test literally chips away a part of me. My reactions are also getting more and more severe every month - this month I stayed in bed all day and cried. My husband wouldn't even go to work that day it freaked him out so much. I don't even want to know what next month will bring. But like you, I am SO not ready to throw in the towel. I think, personally, the only thing that saves me is that I have to call my RE and refocus on all the scheduling of appts and getting prescriptions filled and working on another month. I guess it gives me back at least a little hope and gives me something to focus on and work toward.
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