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Jacki:

So how do u feel??? me and you are in almost the same timeline. I have my test on 27th and I am guessing yours is Wednesday this week.

Good luck and can't wait to hear from you.

Carrie


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Hi All
I am in the 2ww wait as well. I just had 4 blastocysts transferred on Tuesday from my 1st IVF cycle and am on my 2nd day of bedrest. This is killing me. I am so nervous and anxious.

As anyone here been through the 2ww after IVF? I am dreading the day that the office calls me with my pregnancy test results. Where were you all when you received your results? Any suggestions. I have been off for 2 weeks and will return to work on Monday. My test on Thursday. I am thinking about taking off Friday when the results are due.

This is a wonderful site with such caring people. I am so glad that I found it. :)

Jacki in Houston, Texas
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hopeful 2006, You have me sitting her with tears as well, Something so simular happened to me in 97, my youngest daughter was'nt quite a year old and I was about 20 weeks she and I were home alone and my stomach had been bothering me all day I laid down and woke up in a pool of blood, I was so scared I went to the bathroom and when I went to wipe I felt something hanging out at that point I blacked out, I called my aunt that lived around the corner because I knew she could take me to the emergency and also watch the baby, by the time see got I had passed the baby in the toilet I thought it was a dream, my aunt got the baby out and wrapped in in something and took us to the hospital of course there was no way it would have lived it was born to premature, I have only shared this story with a couple people because it brings back to many bad memorys. But sometimes it's good to talk about things, alot of times I go into denial so I don't have to deal with things. I have some many stories but I will tell you this positive one, my youngest was born at 26 1/2 weeks, like you I woke and thought I peed on myself which I never have so it was weird, I realized it was my water that broke, she was born and weighed 1lb 13ozs :) she is truly a miracle, and she had no medical complications she just had to get to almost 5 pounds to come home, and she will be 10 years old in August so out of all the 20+ m/cs I have 2 beautiful daughters the other will be 17 in September! Enough about me, I no your was beautiful and I' so happy it made you feel better I will begoing with my daughter in the morning. My breast have also been sore but it feels like my cycle wants to come, my dh said maybe because my body knows it's suppose to come but your p/g so it's not coming, I told him that's wishful thinking :). Back to you Friday will be here before you know it, I hope AF stays away from both of us, lets pray and keep our fingers crossed...Have a good weekend, keep me posted....Take Care....China

Hello Carrie and China,
Thank you for sharing your life stories and I do hope you both have a bfp on Friday, please keep us updated.

I read this site most days and it truely is so encouraging to hear from every one, this infertilty sure is difficult.

We will be doing our second IUI in March. If this doesn't work it will be IVF, hopefully in July, as recommended by the fertility clinic.

Rest well while you wait.

China:

OMG I am so in tears right now. And I am so happy for you and your daughters. That is an amazing story and yes it feels like I have found a soul sister out here that can relate to my problems. I know that I CAN have a child b/c I have a 19 year old son, but it seems as my age went up so did my possibility of having another child. Did they tell you why you went into labor so soon when you had your horrible loss?? :'(

I have made many mistakes in my life and at the age of 25 actually had an abortion., If I would have known then what I know now I would never even have considered it, however I was in a very abusive relationship and to be honest as many times as he hit me I don't think the baby would have made it or even me for that matter b/c after the abortion I was so outta there and if i had that baby we would be still in contact and maybe I would not even be alive. He threatened to kill me many times and even put a knife to my throat at one point when my son was only 5 years old.

Back to the positive in my life I met my DH when I was 27 and we got married when I turned 30 and we have been married for 9 years this June 2nd ... he has a beautiful daughter from a previous marriage who is 15 this month and I have a son who is now 19 from a previous relationship, but we together have experienced a tubal pregnancy which caused more physical pain than anything else, i have had a over 7 ovarian cyst removals and endometreosis as well as a bladder problem (something like interstetial systitis i am not sure how to spell it) and then of course the loss of our beautiful little girl (Erykah) on December 16th 2003.

They say i lost her because of an incompetent cervix and now if I do have a BFP on Friday at 8 - 10 weeks I will have to be sewn up and possibly be on bed rest for the entire pregnancy. Trust me I will do it if that is what they say, but i hope they just tell me that i need to take it easy.

I have two jobs and also do a small business from home so i am a very busy person and financially we would be crushed if i could not work b/c i work for the County Public School System and they do not offer maternity leave (paid, except for what you have in your own sick leave accrued) and with all these dr appts I barely have anything left.

I am awake and that is very strange b/c i have worked a lot of hours this week, but just awoke for some reason and can't go back to sleep. My God I hope that does not mean AF will be showing today - sometimes when she is coming i wake up strange times. I do have some mild cramping, but nothing major kinda more like I have to go to the bathroom, but I am still so scared of going in the bathroom and seeing blood b/c i will know that my 1st IVF attempt was futile and I will have to start all over again and all these hormones are killing me and my body - I have gained weight and no matter what cannot lose it and i am extremely tired and irritable so that is making home life not so great.

Take care and I really look forward to getting online and seeing your responses (actually everyone's responses).

Have you heard anything from HopefulDC -- the last thing I read she had a BFP and I was just hoping all went well for her and her little bundle??

Carrie


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hopeful 2006, You have me sitting her with tears as well, Something so simular happened to me in 97, my youngest daughter was'nt quite a year old and I was about 20 weeks she and I were home alone and my stomach had been bothering me all day I laid down and woke up in a pool of blood, I was so scared I went to the bathroom and when I went to wipe I felt something hanging out at that point I blacked out, I called my aunt that lived around the corner because I knew she could take me to the emergency and also watch the baby, by the time see got I had passed the baby in the toilet I thought it was a dream, my aunt got the baby out and wrapped in in something and took us to the hospital of course there was no way it would have lived it was born to premature, I have only shared this story with a couple people because it brings back to many bad memorys. But sometimes it's good to talk about things, alot of times I go into denial so I don't have to deal with things. I have some many stories but I will tell you this positive one, my youngest was born at 26 1/2 weeks, like you I woke and thought I peed on myself which I never have so it was weird, I realized it was my water that broke, she was born and weighed 1lb 13ozs :) she is truly a miracle, and she had no medical complications she just had to get to almost 5 pounds to come home, and she will be 10 years old in August so out of all the 20+ m/cs I have 2 beautiful daughters the other will be 17 in September! Enough about me, I no your was beautiful and I' so happy it made you feel better I will begoing with my daughter in the morning. My breast have also been sore but it feels like my cycle wants to come, my dh said maybe because my body knows it's suppose to come but your p/g so it's not coming, I told him that's wishful thinking :). Back to you Friday will be here before you know it, I hope AF stays away from both of us, lets pray and keep our fingers crossed...Have a good weekend, keep me posted....Take Care....China
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Allegonda:

I see I am not the only one who can't sleep today.

Thanks for your well wishes and prayers - trust me they are much appreciated and needed.

Best of luck with your IUI - I am unsure what the difference between IUI and IVF are, but I hope the IUI procedure works for you and your DH.

Carrie...

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Hello Carrie and China,
Thank you for sharing your life stories and I do hope you both have a bfp on Friday, please keep us updated.

I read this site most days and it truely is so encouraging to hear from every one, this infertilty sure is difficult.

We will be doing our second IUI in March. If this doesn't work it will be IVF, hopefully in July, as recommended by the fertility clinic.

Rest well while you wait.

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hopeful2006, Once again I'm sitting with tears in my eyes, We have so much in common you are my soul sister ;). I as well was in an abusive relationship and I had 2 abortions, not only for the fact of the abusive relationship but I was so scared I would miscarry and I did see blood a few times so I chose to end the pregnancy's, But as I think back there is know way I would need or want to deal with or have that person in my life or to be a father to a child of mine, this way I never in LIFE have to see this person again! That is a chapter in my life that is CLOSED! But everything we have gone through make us the person we are today. Thank God we both got out of those relationships, like you said we might not be here today, or I might be here but behind bars! And know I did'nt find out what was wrong with me until 8/05 after 20+ m/cs, I NO I sound crazy but I was with a doctor I had been at for over 15 years, and he honestly had me thinking he was trying to find out what was wrong, but he really was'nt doing anything but taking my money and lying to me and giving me false hope! He would tell me just get to 12 weeks and he would give me a circolg? that's totally spelled wrong but it's the same thing you were talking about when they sew you up, now mind you he started talking about this once I started miscarring at 5, 6, 7 weeks etc, for some reason now I can't get passed like 8 or 9 weeks, all these m/cs have taken a huge toll on my body, My family and friends were telling me for years he was a QUACK and to find another doc, but I would'nt listen to anyone, Finally in June of 05 I fount a wonderful team of doctors, they immediatly started testing my for everything and that's when they found I had the clotting disorder, the other doctor had me thinking I had Lupus, and in fact I did not! I am so happy for both of us that we have dh who love and support us and that we have truly found our soul mates. If I had to go on bed rest that would be major for us also but I would have to sacrafice and do it, It will be hard but as bad as we want a baby it would all be worth it! Other women have told me that certain hormones have givin them very simular symptoms as your self, But in the end it will all be worth it. The Lovenox injections that I take sometimes make me feel sick to my stomach and I have so many bruises on my side and my stomach you would swear I was abused! OMG I hate going to the bathroom also fearing I will see red, sometimes I hold it as stupied as that sounds so I won't have to wipe! Now that's crazy, My mind is playing tricks on me it seems I feel AF coming but I don't see anything, that's a good thing, What about you? I pray it did'nt come! Well hope to hear from you soon, I guess I'll start cooking. Take Care my Soul Sister.....China ;)

Oh before I forget I have'nt heard from HopefulDC, I'm sure all is well she will be in my prayers also!

China:

wow it is truly a miracle that I found you on this site. You are so right we have so much in common it is scarey. It is so nice to talk to someone who KNOWS what I am talking about instead of these people in my life who mean well, but to be honest are just pissin me off.

I got up around 1:00 a.m and saw some brown blood only when I wiped - nothing in the toilet and then nothing else.

I guess AF is going to rear her ugly damn head and screw me up again. I thought I would be ok and be able to say oh well its ok it is only our first try - but I am truly PISSED OFF .. I feel like i went through all this for nothing - I am miserable, nauseas, achy and bruised to high heaven just like you - and still I failed.

I will call the dr today and see what she says - i am sure it is probably going to start today and then I am back onto day 3 and getting started with Follistim and Menopure - oh well at least DH gets a break from shooting me in the ass for a while .

I am sorry I know i sound angry and that is not fair considering there are so many other people going through what i am and experiencing the same thing.

So no AF for you -- FANTASTIC -- you said you thought it was coming Sat night and see your test is tomorrow and you made it .. I am praying for you to get a BFP and maybe if they could sew you up around 6 wks instead of 12 weeks you would not m/c. I am no expert on this subject, but i am sorry that the dr you were seeing was such a jerk. As soon as I am told I am pregnant me and DH are going to a high risk OB Gyn clinic b/c i am not going through this whole thing and then still lose it - I will do whatever it takes even if it means laying on my butt and getting fat for 9 months.

Take care and just think 24 hours from now you could be expecting a wonderful beautiful baby ..

baby dust to all,

Carrie

Just worried,

can anyone tell me if they have had brown spotting and still had a BFP. Mine started the wee hours of the morning today - my actual day 28 cycle was due on 1/22 so i was wondering does this mean my period is definitely here or what could it mean.

I don't have anything right now when i pee or wipe, but am mildly crampy ..

if anyone can help me get through this day without freakin out i would appreciate it.

hopeful2006,
I had brown spotting the day before my pg test, it was only in the morning and disappeared in late morning/afternoon. I freaked out, I laid in bed with my feet up all day, thinking I was getting af. I was sooo upset.
The next day I went in for the pg test and thought for sure I wasn't pregnant, but to my amazement I was. The nurse said it was implantation bleeding, which means when the embryos attach to the wall it sheds some of the uterus lining. I was really shocked when I went in 2 weeks later and saw that I was having twins.

Just relax, don't get stressed. Take it easy, maybe put your feet up.
If Af comes then it's meant to be. It might take 1 try or 5 tries, it will be a very slow process but you will have good results in the end.

I'm passing along baby dust to you and the others who are 2ww.....

Cindy